The Book of Paige

[Paige M./Peter S./Elex Warren]

The Book of Paige
Paige Michalchuk's Journal

Table of Contents
1: Problematic

[Paige M./Peter S./Elex Warren]

1: Problematic

Okay so you know how I was supposed to go to Banting. Well that didn't quite happen. In fact, I got just outside of Toronto and turned my car around and took my place at the University of Toronto. You'd think I'd be ecstatic to get out of this place but when it came down to it, I couldn't. I just couldn't.

There are a few reasons.

Reason One: Spinner. AKA first boyfriend, first real sexual parter, first well, first everything. I didn't get back with him at graduation because I was leaving and that was so not fair to both of us. But now I'm still here and so is he. And unfortunately, he's still with Darcy, aka Nun of the Year. Meaning Spin, so getting nun (pun intended.)

Reason Two: Alex aka First Girlfriend and super best friend. I don't think I could've made it through Hurricane Spinner without Lexi. Weird because I thought she'd be voted most likely to become the next Ted Bundy, only without the icky rape stuff and sorority girl murders. Okay maybe with the sorority girl murders. But (please shoot me) working at the theater was probably the best thing for me because honestly, Alex gets me in a weird way that Hazel didn't. And btw, Hazel, completely disappeared into thin air.

And the last one is way harder to admit than it seems.

Three: I have no clue what I want to do with my life. And going away to Banting for business when I have no clue why I want to be in business is just plain dumb. I mean getting high with Alex definitely put some things into perspective; (I just didn't see this until after I drove out of Toronto.) So I'm now undecided. I chose my major in grade 4 and I'm undecided. I've never been undecided a day in my life.

So how is this problematic...

Well I sort of kissed Spin. Well he kissed me, whatever. But the point is, we kissed. And then I sort of admitted that I still loved him. And he admitted the same thing and this is so not cool. I'm not Manny Skanktos and I'm not the type to be the other woman. That's disgrossting and morally illegal.

And the Alex thing. Working with her back at the theater and some feelings don't go away overnight. I don't know if I loved her or not because it wasn't the same feelings as with Spin but maybe love with girls is different than love with men. I should definitely ask Dylan about that.

And college. College, great. I'm the freshmen class president of Tri Kappa. And I have a mortal enemy who is, if at all possible, worse than Heather Sinclair. Her name is Alanna and she's a Tri Delta. I want to ream something really sharp through her head. I know I'm horrible but she got toad green when Dylan waved at me. One, my brother. Two, dating my best friend, my best guy friend. I should've told her he was gay, wipe that smug holier-than-thou expression off of her hag like face.

Anyway, its late and I'm tired. Had an English paper to write (beyond pointless) but had to catch this thing up with my life.

Toodles
Paige